Then came the sermon, my defining moment for today. The head pastor began to preach on finding things in your life that we need to bury (let go of)...and at the end of the sermon, we were told to write on a piece of paper one word that we need to let go of.
My word? Fear.
I am afraid of the unknown.
I am afraid that my life won't go the way I expect it to.
I am always afraid that something bad will happen or that an obstacle will come up.
I am afraid that I won't have the support, material, or skill to do what I want to do.
I am afraid of being rejected.
Most of all, I am afraid to trust in God completely.
I want to be in control of my life.
I want to be the one to make things happen.
I want to be able to continue on a straight path until I reach my life's calling.
I want to be secure in who I am.
But let's be honest.
I can't do ANYTHING on my own strength.
The only reason I can do anything is because God gave me the ability to.
He knows what He's doing.