God, break me. I am tired of being at a stand still in my relationship with You. I want to be put back together according to Your purpose and molded in Your image. I no longer want to feel inadequate or insecure, I want to find my identity completely in You. I no longer want to be hurt or bitter toward others. I want to be an encouragement to them and Your instrument. I want to love people the way that You do. Help me to become humble and break me so that I can be everything that You created me to be.

Putting two and two together.

I glanced at the clock on the bottom right of my computer and as I expected, it read "2:22"...since last semester, the number 2 has been coming up without fail...I met someone whose birthday is February 22 (which is 2/22)...I ALWAYS look at the clock at 2:22, no matter what...there have been a few phone numbers with the last 4 numbers having some variation of the number 2...addresses...my word count on Microsoft Word...I hope you get my point by now.

So I've been trying to figure out/praying about what this means for quite a while...as I am walking down my dorm hallway today, it hit me. There have been two common themes throughout this semester at the different churches I have gone to or different speakers I have heard: doing life together and the Holy Spirit.

 "For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”-Matthew  18:20

Having relationships with the body of Christ is important...how could an arm work without an elbow? Or a hand without any fingers? How can you see in the spirit without eyes? A huge theme of the Christian walk is "Love your neighbor as yourself." It's not very loving to fake having it all together, is it? I have recently been a lot more comfortable opening up to people but I remember countless tears and lonely sleepless nights because I felt like I had to stay strong for everyone else or fear that people might think that I'm not doing well in my relationship with God. I learned the hard way that Christianity is a very relationship focused faith and I can't do it on my own. It's important to have that accountability and encouragement in your life to push you to be the absolute best you can be and to live up to your fullest potential. It's important to do life together.

There is also the famous chapter (at least in Pentecostalism) of Acts 2 (there's that number again) where the Holy Spirit comes down on the day of Pentecost. I think back to a couple of Tuesdays ago when we talked about spiritual gifts at our floor devotion and the Holy Spirit moved...there was so much unity and encouragement on my floor that night. Where two are more are gathered, there He is. God does great things when we pray together, when we play together, when we encourage one another...when we laugh together....when we cry together...when we're together in general.

I thought I should also include that alone time with God is also important.