The Secret

What is it about keeping something to yourself that makes it feel like a boa constrictor has completely wrapped itself around your tongue? It feels like the pain from that consumes your entire being from the inside out. It's not necessarily a bad thing either, the pain from keeping it inside consumes my entire being. I just don't want people to know because in my head, everything will change. Maybe people will think I'm doing things for the wrong reasons. maybe they won't. I never would have ulterior motives, of course. I just care way too much, but can I really help it? I don't think I can...